Words are the one powerful thing that most everyone has access to. And of course with power comes great responsibility. But I don't know if we apply that words often. We get lazy and self absorbed. It's not that we mean to do that but we usually do. We don't usually notice the subtle hints that people are giving us. And maybe we're the ones giving subtle hints when we should just come right out and say what we mean.

With all this confusion it's amazing that we are able to live and function together, even if it's not always well. In all of this mess it's very important to remember who you are. People may ask you to be more or less or different, but it's always best to just be you.

Here's a tip for living in this mess we call home: Be the one that controls your attitude. If someone hurt you, you choose how to respond. If you're upset and want someone to make you feel better, stop that. You be the one to make yourself feel better. Who knows, maybe the person that upset you just didn't pick up on your hint and doesn't even know why you're upset.

Crunch Time

I love the way it feels after it rains. It feels like the only time that the air is really clean (although I'm sure there is some study out there that completely shuts down that idea and tells me that there are more impurities in the air after it rains than any other time). The water is still on the ground and at night the street lights make it shine. This makes the road incredibly dangerous (at least for my terrible depth perception) but gorgeous at the same time. I feel like the earth is so proud its beaming.

It's crunch time for me...which is why I titled this blog "Crunch Time"...in case you were wondering. Yes, I should be writing papers. Or working on my script. Or possibly my miniature set. Or drawing. Or catching up on reading. Basically, I shouldn't be on this site. But I haven't been here in a while (sorry, Mom). And I really don't want to do any of that. Plus I'm dizzy. I think one of these should justify the fact I'm procrastinating.

I'm not worried though (I'm a little worried but only because I keep having the bouts of procrastination...this one has lasted for the entire semester. Oops). I have no choice but to get everything done. So I will. I will. I will? yes. I will.

I'm trying to be positive. I think my last blog said that. I'm actually doing it this time though. I've started this new thing. I'm calling it "21 days to be a better me". Actually, I just made that up because I've been calling it "21 days to not be uptight" but I didn't want to post it on here that I'm ridiculously uptight, but it's the truth. I still like "21 days to a better me" better though.
Here's why: I don't like being uptight. Uptight people are not happy people. They do not make other people happy. They may be "go-getters" but the fact is they don't believe in themselves enough to go or get! They are too worried that something will mess up and then they will be worse off than when they started. I don't like being that. I see older women in Wal-Mart or the mall and they have frown wrinkles that are more noticeable than their faces. I don't want that. I don't like the idea of being the person everyone avoids. So! In 21 days (how long it takes to make a habit) I will be uptight free. Or close to that. I started last week and had to restart earlier this week. But I will complete this!

And my homework...which I should probably do right now.

But before I go I would like to make sure everyone understands that when I find out what age you can be a crab for no reason, I will still be that lady. Mainly because I think it will be funny. As long as we're clear on that...